Hungry For More…

I sit at my desk this afternoon and look out the window at the gently falling snowflakes that are quickly covering the grass and landing on barren branches. I’m thinking that if nature could talk today, it would speak of its hunger for spring’s sunshine and summer’s sprinkler.

What about you – what are you hungry for? I’m not talking about your favorite food. I’m talking about that deep insatiable hunger that should be driving us to believe for more, to reach for more and to press on until it is satisfied. I am learning that in order to make positive changes we must feed the right hunger.

You know what I mean, we’ve all experienced driving hunger before but then little by little we become complacent and content to stay where we are – forgetting that He is beckoning us to hunger and thirst for more righteousness.

When I was 30, I hungered to be thin again and so I worked hard and I lost 50 pounds (which I need to do again to lose 25:). When I was 34, I hungered to have another baby (my youngest son was 10) and I convinced my husband that we needed a fourth child and darling Hannah was born. When I was 41, I hungered for the health of my granddaughter Mia from stage 4 cancer and now she is 6 and cancer free. Today at 47, I hunger for hunger. Lord, give me a hunger for more of you. More of your plan unveiled, more of your power, more of your thoughts, more creative ideas for what you’ve called me to do. I just long for more hunger.

Revisit with me the story of the woman with the issue of blood in Mark chapter 5. The Scripture tell us that she had hemorrhaged for 12 years and that she had endured much at the hands of physicians – spending all that she had. After all that, she was no better and in fact she had grown worse. I can only imagine how she hungered to be well – to be free from this affliction. In those days, she would have been considered “unclean” and it took a mammoth hunger and courage for her to make her way to the crowded street where Jesus was passing by. It must have been even harder for her to reach out and touch the hem of His garment – believing that just touching Him would be enough. Immediately, she felt in her body that she was healed of her affliction and immediately Jesus felt power leave His body. He stopped and asked who had touched Him and His disciples must have thought He was crazy to ask such a question in the midst of a crowd. Then, the woman came and fell at His feet and He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace, and be healed of your affliction.” Notice He didn’t say “my faith” He said “your faith”.

I will never forget a day in June of 2006 as I held Mia and listened as her oncologist told me that the end was near. She was at Sick Kids Hospital in Toronto for a stem cell transplant and her entire GI tract was hemorrhaging into her diaper. The Doctor said, “Mam-ma (Grandma) there isn’t a surgeon in the world that would contemplate going in there to cauterize an entire GI tract. She’s losing blood as fast as we’re putting it back in. The chemotherapy has done this damage and there is nothing more that we can do.” As he left the room, tears began to pour down my cheeks and for a brief moment I gave in to the feeling of hopelessness. Maybe this was really it – we had fought such a good fight and we had hungered for her healing. I had always felt that victory was at hand but maybe the miracle was that He was taking her to heaven. Many other children in treatment with Mia were already there and I told God that I would not be angry or bitter if He took her to live with Him.

However, as I pondered these thoughts, I felt the Holy Spirit well up inside of me and as she lay across my lap I raised my hand to heaven and I said, “Jesus, I know that if I can just touch the hem of your garment this bleeding will stop. You did it for the woman in the Bible and I believe that you will do it for Mia, so I am touching your garment believing for this bleeding to stop in your precious name.” Then, a sweet nurse named Leanne came into the room and gently touched my shoulder saying, “Mam-ma, I’ve watched you pray over this baby for weeks and we are not going to lose her now. You get her back into the bed and I’ll get the cold water and washcloths to take down her fever.” With renewed hope and a deep hunger for Mia to live, we went to work with the washcloths.

I called everyone I knew to pray and by the time my daughter and son-in-law arrived that night to relieve me of my shift, the bleeding had completely stopped. The oncologist came back to check on her and with a shocked tone said, “There is no medical explanation for this bleeding to have stopped.” I wept but they were tears of joy this time because I had indeed touched the hem of my Savior’s garment.

Again, let me ask you, what are you really hungry for today? Is it a better marriage, physical healing, financial breakthrough, weight loss, weight gain, more of Jesus. Whatever it is, if you press on in faith and believe with expectant confidence that you will have it, you will receive it. I find it ironic that He is the one that can give us a “real” hunger and yet He is the only one that satisfies our hunger.

But it’s up to us to act boldly on what we know. In Luke chapter 5, Jesus didn’t tell the fish to jump into the boat – He told Simon to let down his net for a catch. Simon had to act on what He was told by Jesus and he had to physically let down his net – trusting that the waters he had been fishing in all night catching zip – would now deliver some fish. We too have to act on what we know about Jesus and His promises in order to see His purposes fulfilled in our lives.

Here is a list of 10 positive statements that I am saying everyday in 2011:

  • The joy of the Lord is my strength
  • With God all things are possible
  • The Lord is my refuge, my strength, my rock, my fortress and my deliverer
  • I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
  • I abide in the shadow of the Almighty
  • No weapon formed against me can prosper
  • The one who lives inside of me is greater than the one who comes against me
  • Every organ and cell in my body flows with life and health
  • The Lord shall increase us more and more – our children and us (Psalm 115)
  • He has set before us life and death and we choose life – loving the Lord our God and obeying His voice

“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.” Matthew 5:6


One response to “Hungry For More…

  • rosemccormickbrandon

    Marta – Your granddaughter’s healing is a compelling testimony for Christ. It blessed me today and renewed my belief that indeed all things are possible with God. Excellent writing.
    Rose McCormick Brandon

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